sunny I'm sorry about your family situation and I'm glad T can help with that.

I think sometimes we are just in a place where we can really hear something that's been talked about before, even if we think we really heard it before.

I had a similar experience this week in session. We talked about idealizing (I idealize others) and suddenly I could hear it without the deep deep shame I normally feel. We've covered some other ground since we first talked about it, so I have a better understanding of the background of it for me, but I could see how complex it is, how many layers there are to it. I felt like Helen Keller at the water pump... things that she has said were suddenly falling into place, connecting with me, making sense.

We seek the familiar and we end up in the same relationship patterns, like you said, trying to resolve old issues that we could not as children. We're so lucky to have therapy and T to help us see and understand ourselves and our relationships now. The interpretations are so interesting to me. I love hearing how something happening now took root so long ago and possibly even before our concious memories.

I hope T remembered to make his call.