Im feeling so anxious about not being able to pay the rent today even though i think its not late (with a penalty) on Monday. I have a T appointment in the morning and then my case manager after that, that day.

Feeling like I hate myself right now. Yeah I know I was happy this mornijng.

It's official: the rent didn't get paid today. gotta wait till monday. Its good that the first fell on a saturday.