this sounds like it could be a positive venture for you to take on. can you afford to get some lessons from a music instructor?

when i was ready to start learning to play the drums, i bought a kit and started to self teach myself in the begining, but soon the self motivation wore off. i kept finding excuses to do other things that 'needed' doing instead of practicing most likely due to my low self confidence at the time. by chance i found an instructor who would come to my home and provide lessons weekly. for me, it was beneficial because not only was it forcing me to play my drums and learn something new, i was enjoying the time i spent with my instructor. she would bring her guitar and we would turn my lessons into more of a 'jam' session. it was a lot of fun and great for lifting my spirits my confidence. plus i enjoyed our interactions and gained a new friend from it all. although i no longer do lessens (too busy working full time now), i still maintain a close friendship with my ex-instructor and do look forward to our catch ups.