You start lacking insight into where your at mentally and keeping yourself safe. How do I stop this then? I know it's only hours/days before my thinking goes away. I feel it. It's scary. My husband know everything that's going on with me but really doesn't give a ****, understandably. He has his own issues.

Stop cutting and keep them clean. I stopped after day 2. Doesn't mean I don't think it's an awesome idea to do again While it's healing it looks like I messed myself up really bad. but honestly it didn't even bleed that much. I don't know even that was a failure.

I'm going to ask if my husband wants to go in or not. He helps me with remembering little things like I'm on odt meds.