What I'll share is this

He has no intention of ever being a T again. He says its highly unlikely.

He answered some questions but then when I was actually crying and talking about how worthless I feel, he laughed. More than once.

He went on to basically blame me for everything, saying he did all the things he did with me because I asked him too.... and that he regrets doing out of office work. He claims being with me outside the office made him uncomfortable which is why he is not open to a friendship, even after 2 years "It will always feel too weird and professional" too him.

He felt cold and distant. Barely saying anything to my sadness. Not seeming to understand or care at all.