Yep. A chuckle...probably nervous laughter but still.
I can't remember exactly what I said, but something about how he was acting like he doesn't care at all and it bothers me, he was making me feel worthless... then he chuckles. I was like umm, can you seriously stop l laughing at me? He claims he wasn't laughing at me.
Happened a few other times but I cant remember. I kept asking things like, how am I supposed to handle Christmas? It's already hell... and how do I go on knowing I can't hug you ever again or ever know how you are, simply because of who I am... etc... and dead silence. I felt like most of the time, I was talking to myself...or talking at him
Very disappointing. He's always been so compassionate and kind to me. I don't get why he's taken that away in my worst times.
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