The worst part of all of this, I can't get the "I felt uncomfortable with you" out of my head. Do you know how terrible that makes someone feel, who is already down? Who already hates themselves? Who already is depressed? I mean, he may as well brought a knife to session and stabbed me

He's such a liar, there is NO way he's that incredible of an actor for him to have felt nothing. He claims he never meant to blur boundaries and that he didn't break any, only stretched them, yet one thing for sure he did, he admitted that if his boss found out, she would have been very upset with him and he probably would have lost his license.

We did at least TWO things in the past few months that were not in office that were not charged. One of them was not therapy related at all, other than he is now claiming he went because I was afraid of something there, but you can't call it therapy, you didn't charge me and we were not alone. ARGH

All I wanted was for him to make me feel like he still cared or I still mattered. That I'm not just some damn job. He couldn't do that for me.

I asked him how I'm supposed to deal with never being able to hug him again, while sobbing and he said nothing. I asked how I'm supposed to handle losing my other dog, who is almost 16 and he said "There are options" which was insanely heartless

I know he has problems, he shared tons of them with me, although now is trying to claim he didn't share anything that didn't belong in the office.... I know he is flawed and I was always ok with that. I just can't understand why a little honesty is so hard, he wanted me to trust him, so why can't he give honesty with that?

I know, I'd NEVER report him, but I have so much evidence of things that he would for sure at least be investigated for.... so I can't get why he is trying to act like its my fault. He is more than capable of saying no. Plus some things he suggested.

I have 2 sessions left. I'm torn between venting more or just trying to be silly/fun and even though I know he's fake now, it might be easier for me to handle things ending "feeling good" rather than bad. I guess this is a good lesson in having a T with less than 5 year experience