My therapist is great, calm, accepting and everything. There's nothing bad I can say about her. But... I always have the thought that she's like that because I pay her.
It is her job to be like that so I can't be sure if she is listening with attention because she really cares or it's just her job to be like that (and to make me feel special).
And even if I'm glad that someone is focused on me, someone cares etc. I'm still worried that it is not real.
I have no idea what to do because these thoughts cause a lot of resistance...
I don't want to talk about my life and my stuff to someone who listens to me because she has to!

Is it possible to accept this somehow and take all help, attention, care - Ts can give, even if we know that it's their job and they are doing this because they have to?
At the moment I stuck because of this problem...