Okay, i dont have over 100 pics, more like 10, and they're trapped in an old phone and they cant get out. :mime-box:

I had a similar relationship with my t, which many many people advised me against, here and IRL. But i felt i knew what i needed, and more recent literature on attachment and childhood emotional neglect supported my stance. I asked for what i wanted, and he gave it, with limits. Am i that person now? No. I barely recognize her as me. I was a false self, with false discipline.

I think you will find yourself now too. It takes a lot of courage to talk things out as you have been here.