Hi guys! Today I dealt with a nasty headache most of the day. It was really unexplained and came out of the blue. Excedrin didn't even want to help the headache which is strange because it usually works.

Also my dad is on my last nerve since he keeps trying to get me to go back to the old NP I saw as a teen, he went to his doctor and mentioned my health issues to his NP who I saw in my teens and she told my father I need to come back to her and that she would write a Benzo script for me. For one I used to be a patient, for two I'm well over the age in which she can discus diagnosis's to my parents, and three my primary, a med student, a therapist, and two PA's have told me Benzo's are not the answer for my anxiety disorder; and besides Buspar seems to be working for it, so why would I need a control substance to help me, not to mention this NP is very judgmental and hung my Birth Control over my head until she did a women exam when I have PMDD and it it remains the only thing that helps. Not to mention she was super judgey during the exam.

I have a list of who I would see in the event my current doc ever leaves his practice and she isn't even on the list. That was entirely inappropriate of him to do. I am grown adult women who knows what she is doing with her health. Not to mention she is one of the three reasons I will not ever see a NP.

I am ready for tomorrow and hanging out with M and to have morning coffee with R and talk about becoming roommates which she's mentioned a few times to me. That has got to be better than living with the parents and being bombarded by my father in that my current doc is stupid. Um no he's figured out my issues, got me on a cocktail that works, and who noticed something was wrong with my heart and made me see someone that could help. Best of all his provider has a triggering name for me, so the last thing I want to do is make the PTSD worse.

Hugs to everyone