When I was in my late teens and early 20's everything was right and all set up for me. But I blew it. I didn't realise it at the time but now I do. Everything was really how I wanted and could have just got better and better but no, what happened?

Those stupid "obsessions" started in a negative way. Around that time was when the first negative obsession started, the first thing I was ashamed of and couldn't get, and was too nervous. That made me so angry and frustrated and distracted me from what was really important.

Everything went downhill from there and now I have to try to repair some of the damage.