I'm gonna ask if I can do 2x a week the last 2 weeks. I mean, it will give me 4 sessions, so like a months worth... and I can still use one of them to cry/vent. I want to use one to work on goals and steps to get there... and one to talk about the good stuff. We will see what he says

At this point, I don't see what the issue is, not like I am gonna depend on someone who is losing his phone and email in 2 weeks, either way, I'm cut out.

I am ashamed to admit, this has really messed me up, I tried to drive off the road earlier today. I thankfully didn't hit anything because my dog was with me.

I'm just in such shock. I can't believe this man who seemed to really like me and went out of my way for me, was just acting, for 20 months.