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Originally Posted by DP_2017
I'm gonna ask if I can do 2x a week the last 2 weeks. I mean, it will give me 4 sessions, so like a months worth... and I can still use one of them to cry/vent. I want to use one to work on goals and steps to get there... and one to talk about the good stuff. We will see what he says
At this point, I don't see what the issue is, not like I am gonna depend on someone who is losing his phone and email in 2 weeks, either way, I'm cut out.
I am ashamed to admit, this has really messed me up, I tried to drive off the road earlier today. I thankfully didn't hit anything because my dog was with me.
I'm just in such shock. I can't believe this man who seemed to really like me and went out of my way for me, was just acting, for 20 months.
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I think it's natural to want to do something rash when feeling this depressed/hurt. I've certainly been guilty of it in the past. What you are going through right now is destabilising, stressful, anxiety-inducing and definitely a shock to the system. But you will get through it, hard as it is to think that way. You did nothing wrong, you don't deserve to be treated this way and I am so sorry and angry on your behalf. Everything, even the most horrible things, pass and with time you will regain emotional stability and security, within yourself. Just try for the time being to look after yourself and show yourself a little kindness....like with a physical illness, an emotional wound needs to be looked after.
I wish I had something more encouraging to say to you or some better advice. You'll be ok, DP, just hang in there and wait for the sh*tstorm to pass. We are all here for you in the meantime.