I've been looking for my joy for a few years now. If I woke up "fixed" I believe I'd feel the possibility of joy again.

I remember moments when everything was as it should be and I was aware of the infinate potential of my life. You feel like you can do ANYTHING in those moments - and you leave off the "if only" part. You are flying, free falling, giggling, laughing and full of love. You embody joy.

Joy can not be caught. It lands on you. Depression steals the possibiity of joy.

I'm not saying I'd wake up joyful. I would just know that it was possible to have those moments again.