Thanks for the suggestions. I need some energy to do anything, which I don't have these days. No, I am unemployed, and struggle financially. The anxiety and fear levels are high that I cannot think about or do anything. All I can do is applying for jobs, and hoping I can land a job soon. This is all what I am thinking about. I know maybe I need to work on my self-esteem and self-image to get a job and make recruiters/employers trust me, but I just ... cannot.