
(((Thalia)))
I am so so sorry for your loss, and everything you're going through.
Do you think it would help to see a therapist that knew your therapist? I'm wondering if that might give you someone to talk about the grief, and the relationship, with who can really "get it" - in terms of having know your therapist? (I don't know, it's just an idea.)
Please take care of yourself, and do what you can to take care of yourself right now.