you must be so f***ing tired of me. i can only imagine how frustrating it is to work with someone for YEARS and not see any progress. you yourself have told me you often feel "helpless" when i talk about depressive episodes. i'm sorry i make you feel that way, because you are a good therapist and if i just listened to you then i would feel better. but instead i ignore you because some f***ed up part of me is hellbent on self destructing. i'm sorry, you deserve better. i should probably just quit and stop wasting your time.