My therapist also passed away suddenly this year. I felt a pain that I had never imagined anyone could feel. It was a solitary grief as I was not given the opportunity to talk to anyone who knew her and no-one who has not has therapy could possibly understand the depth of feeling I experienced, so I didn't even try to tell anyone about the pain. Were you able to go the funeral? I know some on here were. That is very hard to have lost your job at the same time as going to work can be helpful, have you found another job? I too found it very difficult to find another T.