Oh yeah, I definitely feel this too, massively. I guess I don't think it's immature exactly... I think it's pretty normal for everyone to want to really matter to other people who they care about. But I know what you mean - it can have a really childlike quality. I always was a teacher's pet anyway.

R did make me feel special. A bit too much, probably. C made me feel like he had no idea who I was sometimes.

On Wednesday I said to M that I thought he'd seen the 'worst possible version' of me, and yet he still seemed to think I was okay, and that felt good, even though it was his job to do that. He asked what I meant - I said he was showing me 'unconditional positive regard', he's a person-centred therapist, that's his job. He said something about how he has to make an effort to do that with some people but he didn't feel like he'd been doing that with me, he felt like he'd just been 'being himself'. So... yeah. That made me feel special. It seemed like he was saying that he likes me. F**k knows why he would and the suspicious, protective part of me didn't like it at all, but the part of me that wants to feel special certainly did.