I live alone and am socially isolated and unemployed. I have no family nearby and now not a single friend. I have become more and more isolated.

Have been trying to get help but so far just go deeper into a pit of despair.

Now I feel I have entered a new weird territory where I don't have much of a personality. I have no idea how I am perceived by others.

I think this is because when alone one doesn't really need a personality. I live in silence. Lately I find myself wondering why others talk so much.

I have opinions about everything but don't see the need to talk about anything.


I also think I am very irritable because I get really irritated by other people. Mostly people in authority. Like my primary care doctor and my apartment property manager. I just feel like people are always doing things and saying things that make no sense.