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Originally Posted by SarahSweden
The other day she asked me about how I feel about our contact and as she´s within public health care I´ve never shared with her what I think about the sessions with her. She´s in a position where she´s also evaluating me for a possible psychotherapy and by that I´ve refrained from critique in any form.
But as she now wanted to hear what I think and also because she has never been supportive or warm towards me I decided to fill out a WAI form (Working Alliance Inventory) and write a few comments to that and send that to her by post. The WAI score was of course low and indicated a bad alliance.
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I could see how it might turn out that this nurse may retaliate for what she sees as negative feedback.
On the other hand, as long as you've been posting here, it seems to me that you have repeatedly not told your therapists how things are going, or given them the negative feedback you've shared here. You've often said, when others suggested you share it, that you couldn't or shouldn't or wouldn't do that for one reason or another.
From my perspective, this represents progress for you, to be honest about the "alliance" or feelings to your mental health providers. It's possible that this nurse also feels the alliance is bad but your willingness to acknowledge it may be perceived in the way I do and may actually improve your prospects for therapy. One reason she may have asked for this feedback (and I think it's unlikely that someone would ask if she's truly afraid of the report) is because she thinks it might help her either help you better or might help her move you along to another provider.
Sometimes the worst possible scenario doesn't occur, and things and people aren't always perfectly predictable. On the other hand, our expectations about people and events can shape how things turn out, aka "self fulfilling prophesy."