I wasn't even aware it had been so long til recently (well, today in fact when I thought about it).
I just didn't need to for a while
I had lots of thoughts
But didn't act
Until last night
No real trigger, just the urge and I carried thru on it
No reason to feel depressed
But I do
Should be fine
But I'm not
Stupid blade- why didn't it stay in the bin when I put it there- I am too weak
But my scalp is sore and red and bleeding too
Can't put my fingers in the bin
Can't hide those sores from the world