I am SOOOO full of sadness. I'm sad that I'm not normal. I'm afraid because I have to go to work tomorrow. I know I was in a "good" mood sometime this weekend that felt good, but now I feel horrible. I think I fell off the mountain I was climbing. I feel so unstable that I desperately need you to stay stable/the same. I feel like my brain is lost in space and I feel ungrounded. During these times, it is difficult to hold on to your stability and to know you are still here like always. I think I am making progress, just based on the fact that I felt better and that my so-called humor seems to be returning. I have noticed this at work, but only during lunchtime. I hope you are still around.