This is an exert from a journal entry of mine that I think examples what you are describing. I have had this experience at other times during psychosis:
I was at a rehersal dinner for a friends wedding and I became lost in the sea of voices. I felt overwhelmed by the presence of darkness. I was so uncomfortable that I knew everyone noticed. I went in the bathroom and literally shook and started praying for the Lord's Spirit to fall on me. I felt him physically and thought everything would be fine. But, when I walked out, I still felt evil and could only hear noise no matter who spoke to me.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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