I’ve had a horrible few weeks. My car broke down and then tonight, my cousin got angry and said horrible things to me. I’m in a VERY depressed place. This is a hard time of year for me. I’m having bad thoughts. I’ve been doing so much better lately that this is really throwing me for a loop at how depressed I feel. I have an appointment on Wednesday and my friend is supposed to drive me but I hope she doesn’t let me down.

Wednesday feels like a million miles away.

I’m hurting.