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Echos Myron redux · Dec 03, 2018 at 03:17 AM

I've had 4 dreams about T this week including 3 last night.

1) I had this one a few nights ago. I was googling him and I couldn't find anything new, so I emailed him and asked if there was anything I hadn't found. He sent me a link to a video of him in the 90s in which he had a moustache (to my knowledge there was no such facial hair phase irl). I found another video from that and somehow I jumped into the video. I was on a bus with 10-15 other Ts including my T. We went to a warehouse where there was supposed to be some conference.

Possible trigger:

a man came in with a gun and said he was just going to spin in circles and shoot. I ran for the door and got caught with a bullet but I was alright. I realised that T had run deeper into the warehouse and I didn't know whether he was okay.

2)

Possible trigger:

this one was very sexual and I'm reluctant to write about it in detail even with the trigger warning in case it is triggering. In was pretty graphic. I'll just say that it started with me sitting on his knee and feeling that he was aroused, and it went from there.

3) I was late to my appointment. I was trying to get a taxi from the nearest city to his village but nothing I flagged down would stop. In my dream my appointment was supposed to be 1pm but I got there at 1.25pm. I didn't go in, instead I sent him a detailed email telling him what was going wrong for me and asking for an appt that evening, and I thought I sent it, but it turned out I had accidentally sent it to some kind of tradesman who in my dream worked nearby. I later realised and phoned him and rearranged for 7pm. That appointment took place sat outside on the street, and the main thing I remember is spontaneously hugging him while he was sat opposite me.

4) I think this might have been connected to 3. Possibly the same evening I mentioned to my H that my T had told me he was throwing a party that night. For some reason my H decided to phone him up and try to get an invite which I found embarrassing. H rang him up and said to him "You can pretend you know each other through work". T seemed to not want to invite us but not be able to see a way out of it. When we got there he gave us a picture he had painted but it had been made out to someone else and he stuck a sticker over it with our names on. It was clear he didn't want us there so I decided to leave. Later I had the picture he gave me and someone said "wow that's an amazing painting" and I turned round to see T was in earshot and I was annoyed because I was mad at him for giving us this picture that was clearly meant for someone else and I didn't want him to receive any praise. I looked at the picture and thought "This picture will always remind me of this feeling".