I feel like it’s possible that some of the email exchanges were not good for me, but not all of them. I’m just not sure how to decide which ones or which types of emails he should respond to and which not. I think that if he had talked to me about it first, I still would have been upset about it, but would have respected him for it more in the long run. I’m aware there was no easy way for him to do this.

I plan to keep talking about all this. I thought I had my act together, but sent an ultimatum email last night basically indirectly saying if he doesn’t respond today, I won’t show up on Wednesday. I’m not sure what sort of craziness overtook me when I wrote that, but it can’t end well. Ugh.