"Have you ever heard of folie a deux? "

Yes, I always thought it meant that both people are to some degree equally affected, whereas with his gaslighting and other tricks I do think it was intentional on his part or so purposeful. He played some really cruel games. I was also embedded in a deep set of delusions about him when we broke up and then when my psychosis came back that had developed into an even more elaborate conspiracy involving the world powers who were spying on my every mouse click... I literally though I had no privacy even in my own bathroom, so it was pretty bad.

Fortunately if you do not have delusions you don't have to live through an experience like that. It is terrifying both to live it and in retrospect.

Thank you for sharing. I know you to be a very private person so I am honored you felt moved to share your experiences with me.

I noticed you are careful in how you write and certain statements you made struck a chord with me. We are similar in some respects except that my goal for the day is to do laundry and cook a dinner and brush my teeth and get something down in the morning (plain kefir with a bit of chocolate protein powder) when I have no appetite.

Yes i was operated on and then had chemo for lung cancer and it hasn't come back yet, so far so good but I never got my mojo back after chemo.