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Originally Posted by tecomsin
"Have you ever heard of folie a deux? "
Yes, I always thought it meant that both people are to some degree equally affected, whereas with his gaslighting and other tricks I do think it was intentional on his part or so purposeful. He played some really cruel games. I was also embedded in a deep set of delusions about him when we broke up and then when my psychosis came back that had developed into an even more elaborate conspiracy involving the world powers who were spying on my every mouse click... I literally though I had no privacy even in my own bathroom, so it was pretty bad.
Fortunately if you do not have delusions you don't have to live through an experience like that. It is terrifying both to live it and in retrospect.
Thank you for sharing. I know you to be a very private person so I am honored you felt moved to share your experiences with me.
I noticed you are careful in how you write and certain statements you made struck a chord with me. We are similar in some respects except that my goal for the day is to do laundry and cook a dinner and brush my teeth and get something down in the morning (plain kefir with a bit of chocolate protein powder) when I have no appetite.
Yes i was operated on and then had chemo for lung cancer and it hasn't come back yet, so far so good but I never got my mojo back after chemo.
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You have been through so much. If you are financially able to just chill and take care of yourself...that's the agenda, right? I am in a position where I need to get back out there to survive. I simply don't have enough money to survive on...and the book project is...to kind of help get back my mental mojo. If it is possible.
Yeah, it sounds like gaslighting...but a bit of folie a deux as well. I mean the dude sounds so evil and manipulating. Maybe it was a bit loosely folie a deux but mostly gaslighting.
Well, I learned my lesson. I suppose I have been keeping to myself because I feel extremely vulnerable...and that's when the sickos strike. On the other hand...I have changed. A lot. I quit drinking. I quit smoking. I became vegetarian. I don't engage in risky behavior. I don't talk to strangers. Like if a guy I don't know comes up to me when I am out and tries to talk to me I literally say I don't talk to men I don't know and I walk away.
Maybe we are both in recovery mode but just can't see it. I can't imagine having chemo. Surely it will take time to recover. Ah, kefir. Such a good idea. You have given me the craving for some today.
