I would have loved to work on transference with my first T and definitely made efforts. I chose a psychoanalyst primarily for this reason vs other types of Ts at the time. The problem was that he projected all sorts of things onto me that he was familiar with but did not exist in me and my history and, at the same time, grossly dismissed my own feelings and interpretations of them. I also did seriously evaluate his perceptions and feedback but they just did not fit in my life no matter how I looked at it. They fit in his own history (he reveals a lot online so I knew a lot) and work interest. I tried many many times to explain but he seemed truly interested in only his projections and not what I was explaining. How could one process anything in that way? I left him for good when this became apparent (had no attachment to him whatsoever except being really annoyed at how he dealt with his work). Obviously the conclusion for myself was that I chose the wrong person for me and it was kinda meaningful why that happened. But I definitely think that a T like him could cause serious turmoil and harm to certain clients, perhaps even create false memories and then "work" on a whole fake world.
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