Just a quick check-in. Ran a ton today. Then, I had a lot of errands to run, including grocery shopping, which I absolutely hate. Got the groceries put away on half a chocolate bar with nuts (though it was the fancy kind of chocolate).

Finally got a shower, started laundry. All my chores are running behind. Started lunch at 2:15, was able to eat Greek yogurt but am struggling with half a bowl of soup. I know I need more calories than that. Maybe full from the chocolate?

IDK, I have a GI appt. the day after Christmas. He did tell me my ulcer surgery had to be altered some because of not having enough fat in the normal area (too much muscle) and part of my surgery was like a gastric sleeve, which is just what a person with an ED needs.

Some days, I'm normal hungry, others starving, and some just feeling really full. I will eat nearly the same things, so I don't know what does it. Maybe the amount I run? My cycle?

Mood is so-so. Yesterday was the anniversary of the bad early December event. I had a few anger outbursts, and when my daughter was out of the room had a chance to tell H, who remembered it happened sometime before Christmas but not when. He was very supportive about it, extra patient with me.

Going back to my date with the soup bowl.