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Originally Posted by DechanDawa
I am older and divorced and don't feel special to anyone, even God. I am trying to accept this as a positive. I relate feeling special to being young and having sexual and/or romantic partners...and it never lasted. I would like to be a better person, more righteous, and dignified. More in God's image. Then I might feel authentically special, which would be a new experience. (I never felt special to either parent. There were a lot of children, and I was never the special one so the idea that it is not important is probably a left-over from my childhood.)
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I hope you can have the experience of feeling special somehow.
When I think of my own 'needy' feelings I also relate them to the feelings and neediness of a young child. But in reality, as Xynesthesia and others have said, wanting to be special is like wanting to be cared for and seen as who we really are, and it's probably just part and parcel of being human.