I think me and my mailman like each other. It's clear that we enjoy talking to each other.

Problem is, I often kind of flounder with conversational chit chat and small talk. Today we saw each other and literally there was like 10 seconds (which felt like 10 years, where I didn't know what to say. He doesn't seem to know what to say either. But he is very friendly and is very sweet and nice when ever we see each other.

I felt kind of guilty, because today I ended up just saying "have a good day," after the ten year pause, and headed toward my apartment. Then he walked by my apartment, and started to engage me. He was like, "I'm so glad this is my last stop. I get to go home and relax!" And I just said "Have a good one!" And went inside. Wow. I need help, lol. Someone help me. What do I say to him. I sort of wonder if I didn't WANT to say anything to him. Not because I don't like him. But because I was tired, and I just...thinking of stuff to say in response is actually HARD for me! Also sometimes I'm just not expecting to see him.

I have thought about asking him for coffee before. I'm hesitant though because he might have a girlfriend. Or a boyfriend. Or maybe he's married. Would I have to be the one to ask him out? I do think that might be the case, since he has a government job and he could probably get in trouble for asking people out on his route.

My therapist cautioned me against it. She said "if it didn't work out, would that be awkward? You still have to see him." The thing is though I wouldn't have to all the time. I hardly ever see him now bc I'm busy. He comes to deliver around 11:30. I could easily just avoid him.

What do you guys think? Does it seem like he likes me? Would he not be able to ask me out due to his job? How do I at least get better at the chitty chatty?