i had an up and down day. i haven't felt really down or anything, but work is stressful. i don't usually work full time but am working the whole week, and right now it feels like an eternity stretching out in front of me. i'm not looking forward to christmas itself, because we always have a family lunch and there are always underlying tensions. i don't like spending time with my family. just wish i could spend all holidays with friends instead.