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Originally Posted by tecomsin
I don't believe I can recover completely because I have had some brain damage from all the manic episodes and also the heavy medication I was on, never mind brain fog from chemo, which is a real thing. I am injured, truly disabled and fortunate to be protected financially.
I am sure you have thought of everything, and tried many options but was wondering if the local crisis line could put you in touch with some services or get some counselling to prevent a breakdown.
I am medicated and see a psychiatrist at least monthly, sometimes more often and I have a armoury of medication I can take if things start to go out of control but you are on your own from what I understand.
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No kidding I have probably called the local crisis hotline about 60 times in the past year to hammer out everything from every angle. The people on there are wonderful and tell me to call back...so I do. I called them three times this past weekend.
I think I am what they might call treatment resistant in that not much works. As well...because of my situation I have to be completely functional. I am not protected financially, socially, by family, by a partner or anything. I have been trying to work things out for two years and I guess I am at the end of things. I had a therapist who did nothing for me. Medications made me insane. Everyone has washed their hands of me. IDK. Maybe that is what is supposed to happen. I saw a psychiatrist and he refused to diagnose me saying I had situational stress. He did not recommend medication.
Maybe this is how the story is suppose to go. That's my new thought. I once had a professor who would tell me that I pushed the river too much. He would say, "Don't push the river. Let it carry you."