Something similar happened recently with my therapist. I was being plagued by a particular thought after our previous session. Over the weekend I ended up emailing him that I was struggling with something and we ended up having a phone call but I told him this was an in-person thought. At the next session, I spent probably half the session trying to say this thought out loud and I couldn't. He finally asked me if I could write it down and gave me some paper. I even had trouble writing it down but I finally did. Obviously there was some intense shame behind this thought. I think part of me was afraid he was judging me which is why he decided to self-disclose at this point. It was a pretty personal thing he shared with me. When he started to talk my stomach did a little flip because I knew what he was about to tell me. I wasn't sure what to make of it at first. I felt privileged that he chose to share this with me. I felt 100% reassured that he wasn't judging me, which makes me think he made the right choice to share. I felt a sense of connection because we had been in the same situation. But I also felt a bit confused, thinking was he supposed to tell me that? I seriously considered sharing here what he told me, but I figured some of you would criticize what he shared and I couldn't deal with it at the time. I've come to the conclusion that it was overall a good thing that he shared. Give it some time, LT. You'll figure it out.