"Don't push the river, let it carry you." Maybe I can remember that the next time I start to freak out wondering how I ended up so alone in life and knowing there are many more people in the same boat out there.

My psychoses are treatable it seems like, but I am almost permanently depressed and have very negative thoughts about myself and that seems to be 'treatment resistant'. I cannot take Antidepressants because they either cause mania, anxiety or just don't work.

Your situation seems very complicated and a professional might need a number of sessions to decide. My signs of bipolar were supposedly unmistakable but now my long term pdoc thinks it could be SZA. Now I take a med approved for schizophrenia but not bipolar yet and am psychiatrically stable but chronically depressed. Low Energy is my name.

It sounds like you have energy and still a bounce in your step?

It is good to know you have someone familiar to call and they are familiar with your situation.