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He totally ignored all the things in my email I needed him to pick up on like "Sometimes I do not think it is any technique or modality you use that brings about progress, healing, and or change but it is the interaction we have." and "You are the only healthy way I have been able to calm it but in the same time It is not permanent because "you" are not real." Instead he focused on this; " When I think of never going back to session, instead a sense of relief, everything came flooding right back in. The throwing up, the not wanting to live, intrusive thoughts of self harming, the heavy emptiness, sadness......all the things that got me into therapy to begin with." He used that as a target for EMDR to see if a childhood memory would come up associate with it and session ended early and I do not feel any better.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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