Please throw razers and any means of hurting yourself away (as everyone has said) and please seek help ASAP. Do you think you need to go IP? It's always best to err on the side of caution or trust your gut as far as what you feel you need during this time. If you have someone to talk to and look out for you and your safety during this time, then that would be a way of protecting yourself and having support. Of course, you always have here though, and I hope it helps you to post, even if it's just a little bit.

Your well being comes first. I'm so sorry to hear you're suffering.