Wants2, Thanks so much for your understanding also. I just feel like what I have done in going behind my husbands back like this has brought me this grief. Punishment if you will. Seems like I can find the men online or they find me. And I fall so easily for the attention they offer. There have been a couple in particular that have really brought me a peace of mind and filled my heart with laughter and fun. But neither have felt for me what I have for them. And I know that isnt always the easiest thing to do. But ohh gosh, I have put so much hope into the one now. And I feel its caused him much pressure. Its so hard to explain.

My family offers no support to me. None whatsoever. After my dad is gone I am afraid I will truly be null and void member . The most contact will be with my one sister and her son who is my godson. Other than that , I have my friends whom I have mostly isolated from my life , and all of you . I wish I knew where to begin to find myself. Heck if I could I would runaway with Kenny Chesney to the islands and see what he found there LOL!!! I bet you all get so sick and tired of me talking about him. But he is such a neat person. I cant help it!

OK well take care, thanks for your advice hon. I do appreciate it.
And It will be taken into consideration too.

Hugz~
Tryin