Saw T this morning since he offered to change my session to earlier last night when he texted me. First thing he said when I got in was that he apologized for not being able to call me back last night, and said he thought he'd be done sooner with whst he was doing but wasn't. He asked how MC went and I told him that got cancelled yesterday as well. He said something along the lines of that I had 2 therapists bail on me last night when I could have used one of them. We talked about how I coped, or lack thereof, over the weekend. He asked how I was feeling this morning, and I told him I was tired because I didn't go to bed until closer to 3:30 am but was actually feeling more emotionally tired than physically tired. I kept stopping midway through conversations and he kept asking me what was going on. Told him that my thoughts have been pretty bad this weekend. He asked what was going on yesterday that I decided to call Told him I was having some severe SH/SI thoughts He made a statement about what I said and I started tearing up but stopped myself. He kept talking about how he can tell that I feel really bad right now, asked how I imagine the rest of the day and week to go. I drifted once again and he asked what I was thinking of. I told him I wish I had more time in the session because of how ****** I was feeling and that maybe I could talk more if I had more time. He asked if I wanted to keep our usual time on Wednesday or if I wanted to see what other times he had available. I told him to just keep it where it is because I don't want to mess with DH work schedule. Really wish I could see him every day the next few weeks but I know that's not possible. He said I could call him before our next session and he would be able to actually call me back. Ended it there. I might call him tomorrow with how I'm feeling. We'll see.