I'm female. I had an emotional affair with my (male) best friend and artistic partner. A year and a half ago we cut off contact, which I'm only now starting to accept.

Another dear friend of mine, female, is doing an artistic project with him and some other people, and invited me to come to their opening.

I want to support her, she always supports me. But I don't want to risk feeling devastated by being around him and seeing him perform without me. I'm still pretty affected by the loss of my friend.

Wondering if going to this will be a step forward in getting over this or a step backward into another hole of grief. Wondering if anyone can relate or has maybe been in this situation.