you're very welcome. At this point in my life I find that when I can really relate to someone else's post I feel I am called to share and hopefully help if possible.

As for the past relationships, It was not necessarily a cause for the failures or break ups directly though I am sure that not getting past this type of thinking caused it's own share of problems while the relationship was still going. I can think back on all of my relationships and say that they all ended for different reasons though.

I will say that the issues I had back then were tied very directly to my own insecurities and of course relational immaturity. That's not something that is easily overcome with anything but experience and time (the immaturity portion). But you can change your thinking which in turn will help. I emphasize the insecurity portion because one that is seeking for someone else to make them feel special and relies heavily on this other person tends to lack security in one's self.

The best advice I can give you is something I tell everyone in and out of relationships and that in addition to what I said previously about focusing on the fact that she chose you.. That you focus on you - not selfishly - discovering self, accepting who you are, finding contentment and security in yourself and that will always make you a better partner and happier even in relationships. Because relationships with others should never be about them "completing" you (as the old cliché says) but being someone that adds more to your life like icing on a cake. A cake is a cake with or without the icing but oh so much better with it

Hope this helps.