Emdr T I am so tempted to cancel tonight's appointment. I can tell you about my past, what I cant do is tell you how horrible I am feeling. I cant do this anymore. I have done things this week I am not proud of. As hard as it was to talk to T about this stuff I always knew how she would handle it. I don't know how you will handle everything...you know that fear of being judged or being too much so that you will leave.

T why did you have to leave?? I need your support, compassion, and understanding. I need you to say you are here for me and to remind me why it is important to go tonight. I need you.