54 and up is "severe depression." I scored 57. It's a wonder I manage to get out of bed in the morning. Last night I set my clock earlier, but still didn't get out of bed earlier, so another morning without a shower. You don't want to know how many mornings there haven't been showers. Let's just say that only 2 people live in my house, and my water bill has decreased by over 50%.

I see my Pdoc at 11:30. Last night I texted my T, asked for her support and she responded. I felt a little better, and did sleep, but am sitting here at work, shaking.

I am so lethargic. And, yet, anxious and shaking at the same time! Do you think my Pdoc will ask me a bunch of questions and/or use a depression scale with me (i.e., Beck Depression Inventory)? I hope there is some guidance coming from him.

Everyone always says, "Remember to breathe." I am guilty of saying it myself, at times. But, mostly, it's kind of an insult to me (although I know the people saying it have absolutely no intention of insulting me!!), because I have lung disease, and breathing can be, at times, difficult for me.

And before anyone chastises me about smoking, I have NEVER taken any tobacco products in my life, so no judgement, PLEASE.

Signed,
Falling apart, but hanging on,
Cool