I think these contradictory responses in two back-to-back posts (i.e. people always think the worst vs. caring replies) is a good sign you should spend your money at the doctor. I’m not judging or attacking, I’m just highlighting your very own words. Threatening to leave PC is another extreme example of why the doctor is most important. That verbal behavior is already recognized as unhelpful for all forum members and is against the PC “rules”.

I hope you can find a little more peace and comfort. It seems torturous to live with so much pain and intense emotions.