This what bothers me. I'm capable of doing things, but I don't have a reason to. I have no motivation. I think it stems from the fact that my life has been meaningless, even when I had more energy and was doing things things, and had a more positive outlook. Others are better not because they are smarter, but because they have more energy and motivation, and more resilient to life's failures. This gives me a feeling of anger, sadness, and self-pity. I don't know how to overcome this lack of motivation as I know I will fail again when I try again.