Well I feel low but am coping more or less.I am still lonely but I kept busy,I wrapped presents and cleaned the kitchen,did the washing up,put it away and sorted the recycling,mopped the kitchen floor.I slept this afternoon.I am wrapped in blankets and lazing on the sofa in front of the tv now.I want more company,December is a quiet non eventful month and I am skint.It all went on presents.January I have more on and more opportunities to meet new people.I must not complain God has been good to me.I am 20 days no contact with my narcissist mother and narcissist sister.It is peaceful and I feel safe for the first time in 37 years.