We spoke for 2.26 secs today.

It's close to 9pm. You said you'd write but you haven't yet.You don't offer "emergency" sessions.

How long am I supposed to wait?

I've been waiting since the 20th for a reply. You can't offer me an emergency session.

I've been depressed since I was 14. I hate my life. I wish I was dead, it's all so pointless. I don't care about anything. Medicine has made me colder. I don't feel anything anymore. They're just "cases and diseases". I'm not going to volunteer at the children's ward because I'm selfish and they're already sick. My presence is not going to change that. If I pass stomatology, then I have to stress about surgery. I pass surgery then pharma. I pass pharma then 5 summer exams to go. Then what? Another 18 in 5th year.

I pass those then what? Another 6 in final year. Then what? = 2 years as a foundation doctor. Then what? 3 years for speciality A or 7 for speciality B to work 12 hour days.