I want to go run and hide away from anyone. I am feeling completely abandoned by my doctor after today's appointment. I get where they're coming from saying that it's a primary care office not a psych Dr but my dr was the one who offered to do my meds. She was the one who wanted me to speak with their psychiatrist so I went today and the lady was rude and was threatening to send me to the ER because I didn't want to discuss my SI thoughts. I struggle with thoughts and I just told my T about them yesterday, I don't want to talk about them to a lady who I never met and started accusing me on not wanting to get better, not wanting to try and tells me to not even try the new med that my Dr prescribed me because it won't help me. And sat there at dismissed that I'm going to T 3x a week and I feel comfortable with him but it's not DBT so it's not effective to her. She basically told me that my dr is done with me and I don't need to keep my next appt with her if it was just for meds. A 20 minute appointment and she probably thinks I'm some stuck up disobedient person when I am just extremely overwhelmed and trying not to cry all the time lately. I just want to scream that I am trying and I'm sorry I'm not good enough